one word - NUA!
PHEW, I'm finally having some time all to myself. Maybe not some time, more like one full day. Surprisingly... Unless I decide to pick up my phone and text some friends for dinner later, I should be home the whole day. The original plan was to go JB for A&W today but somehow it got cancelled and the real reason??? Erm...I DUNNO! I was just too tired to ask for the reason and here I am, HOME SWEET HOME. It's not that bad after all.
I always thought I'm one busy girl. But the truth is there are many others out there who are much busier than me. They head out of house early in the morning for something and come home late after another thing. There are many activities going on for them in a day and I really think I would crumble if I'm them. Therefore, I vouch never to be like that. 'Learn to say no', that's what my senior tells me and I believe this phrase is super important when you step into Uni and worst, into hall life. If you don't know how to mouth that phrase out, there you have it, a whole new BUSY life. Dedicated to other people and not yourself. HOW SAD!
Coming to think of it, I guess I have already taken on a new perspective about life and relationships. Especially after what I heard from my senior ytd. I realised dramas do happen in life, not once but twice. Maybe thrice, to some people out there in the world. Relationships are vulnerable as it is and it's not strengthened by time. I always thought so but I was wrong. I guess what matters is you are happy together and not bounded to be with each other because it's a HABIT. Well well well, good luck to all couples out there. :)
Happy belated national day. :)
As usual, National Day is just another day and the only thing I'm excited about when watching the NDP broadcast live on TV was the fireworks. But... I got pretty amused because I realised I can catch some glimpse of them from my house. WHO says you must book some expensive, classy hotels when you can actually watch it in the comfort of your own house. Maybe just a little lacking of that sophisticated element while watching it because I'm not one of those rich and lucky people swimming in the pool, witnessing the sky blow up right before my eyes. I bet it was awesome for them. I should put that in one of my to-do list next time.
Oh...and I forgot to mention how early I woke up today just for dance. I had to wake up at 8am and travel all the way to my friend's condo at East Coast area. It wasn't an efficient practice because of one too many reason which upset me quite alot. I don't hate the feeling of being pangseh but I hate the feeling of being pangseh-ed
without a reason. I guess that's what called anticipating a person who may never come. FYI, it's a new term that I created since UNI. It's catered for people who always make me anticipate their arrival until the very last minute. So far, two people made it into my list. :) Enough of unhappiness, I'm still satisfied with the MINI SEVVY OUTING after that - Katong chicken rice and MACS ice-cream cone after that.
Then later in the night (pretty much a few hours ago!), I met up with the peeps for just a little while to have 'supper' at Jalan Kayu. Really appreciated them coming down because although most of them are already full from their dinner, they still came down. I guess it shows how much we treasure the bond we have fostered among us. A bunch of damn ON people I have known for so long. But... I guess we need some HTHT real soon. I realised I'm missing out alot on the details of all your life. Be ready to rant one day! :) I'm so looking forward to it.
and yes...It feels like SHIT.
Beauty
While watching TV in the hope to 'beautify' my morning, I heard a phrase from a celebrity which kinda set me thinking. "An old uncle once said that I don't need plastic surgery or facial to be pretty because
Happiness equals Beauty". It may sound as simple as it is being laid out but who's really happy throughout their life now. I would say none because it's too perfect to say that you are happy in each single moment of your life. Then again, I asked myself if I'm happy with my life now.
I think and think and I realised I'm happy in certain aspects but not in the rest. It seems like I'm having a hard time understanding the things I do sometimes. Because of that, I guess I may have hurt people I know, I don't know, and I sort of know. Well, who knows who's hurting unless you say it out. We all know we are humans and we hide our feelings for fear of being exposed. I believe many of my friends are and that's how well I know them. Life is filled with regrets somehow or another. I guess the key to solving it will be to talk things out and thrash it out when the circumstances ask for it. Get it over and done with! There's no point in looking back at the decisions you have made, we all know it's life and we age as minutes and hours passed. It's time to move on. Step up and be brave because we should all be granted the right to happiness. Try and avoid from wallowing in misery. Be happy and that's when you are beautiful!
School starting in 27 days' time! Better enjoy the rest of the holidays first. :) But, as weirdly as it sounds, I can't wait for school to start. As much as I can't wait for it to end, now I can't wait for it to commence. Let's promise myself to work harder the next sem! And maybe, I should start thinking about what I want to commit to next semester too.
